nathalia’s blog

This saturday was a bit… Strange. First, when I arrived at my friend’s shop, there was my other friend there who normally comes later. This was a good thing, but an other friend, who normally comed very early, only arrived when we were almost going home. And he looked a bit sad… I asked him if everything was ok, he said yes but… Don’t know. And our friend who work in the shop received a client who didn’t stop talking, so we couldn’t talk to him XD Well…

More, friday we were going to see IchiNi(our friends’ band) playing (at Panda’s house, our friend and one of the guitarrists of the band) and we couldn’t anymore because Panda’s grand-mothjer was sick… Hope she’s better now ^_^ Nothing more to say because, it was a strange weekend.

Well, first, I’m going to thanks for the comments. Hmm, what can I say… Here, in São Paulo, apparently, the attacks have stopped. But it stills being a dangerous place. Today I came back to my house by bus and subway. Nothing happened, but you still need to pay attention. 

Talking about other things, a month ago, the 22/04/2006, I started to organize a surprise party for my sister, and I’m going to talk about it (that’s why my post is called “My sister! XD”). 

Well, since March the 22nd, I noted down the persons I wanted to invite, the day it will be, and how it will happen. First, it should be for May the 14th, but I remembered that this day will be the “Mother’s day” here, so I couldn’t. 

Then I said that it will be May the 21st, and it stood like that. Then, the so awaited day arrived, and she wasn’t suspecting anything. I put her out of the house (she went to the beauty room, it was my gift to her) and I went to the subway wait for everyone. 

When I arrived, they were already there (I was late XDD). Brunet wasn’t there because she said she was not coming, and we realized that Panda wasn’t there also (Panda is one of our friend’s nickname). 

We started to wait for Panda, and we couldn’t contact him, it was impossible! Then, a certain time later, Brunet appeared!! She told us that finally she could come. And a little bit later… PANDA!! HE ARRIVED!! 

We waited for the bus and we went to my house. My sister wasn’t arrived yet and that was good. I have shown them the house and it was really exciting when they entered my studio, Hide played my father’s drums and Gui played mine guitar!! They are really awesome!! 

30 minutes later we were waiting for my sister. When she arrived and saw everyone, she was REALLY surprised! It worked!! She was laughing, and crying, we hugged her, she was soo happy!! 

We stood all the Sunday together and I enjoyed that my sister was happy with my “real” gift to her ^^ I love to do those things to her and see a big smile in her face ^^ I hope I’ll be able to do that again XD I enjoyed myself also, I really like to be with my real friends ^^ It was funny =D

Well, some days ago, here in São Paulo, we can say that “a bomb exploded”. I’ll accept, I don’t know very well how it started, and I can’t say that I know the reason very well. But, some gangsters started to attack the entire city. They burned lots of buses, killed lots of police men, they were almost destroying the city.

Apparently, all those “attacks” started on Friday, but it “exploded” on Saturday, and I really think I was a bit lucky because, on Saturday, anyone at home knew about what was going on. So, like every Saturday, my sister and I went out home, and, we walked on buses and on the subway, but nothing happened to us.

Yesterday, it was worst. The gangsters (they are part of the PCC*) got what they wanted. They stopped the city. Everyone stopped working at 16h (not everyone, but almost) and, our school is just in front of a subway. Everyone was scared, so everyone lived. My sister and I called my father, and he came to took us at school.

He arrived a bit “later”, and when we were coming back home, his girlfriend called saying that there, were she works (with my aunt and my grand-father), they “stopped” also, and she asked us to take her. But, the city was REALLY stopped, the streets were full of cars, we couldn’t even drive normally, everything was stop.

A few minutes later, she called again, asking if she could go with my aunt and my grand-father to their house and if we could join her there. Ok, it was fine. But we stood 4h on the traffic in São Paulo, some times, my father even turned off the car. It was horrible, when I arrived at home, I never felt so tired.

Later, at night, the streets were empty. No one wanted to get out. Everyone was scared. A friend of mine (Laura) called me when I was waiting on the car, and she said that at 8 PM anyone could be on the streets because some police men ridding horses were going to walk around, shooting the PCC men.

I don’t know if this happened because, I was out at 8 PM (in the car) and I saw nothing. So I don’t know if they did that or not. I just hope that this kind of “war” really stopped this morning, because I was really scared.

I think São Paulo is falling down, it’s everything going wrong. It’s very dangerous to walk here, you can’t be fine when you get out, or even if you are at school or at home. You must pay attention to anything!! It’s an absurd!! Things should change. Any place you go, you are in danger. “You can’t save yourself” (Dir en grey - CLEVER SLEAZOID).

I like São Paulo, but I’m almost every time thinking about what can happen to me when I get out, or even when I’m home. It’s… Kind of… Boring… We need to be worrying about everything, every time… Because things happen when you don’t think they’ll happen.

Those days I was thinking about life. What it means… I wrote about it ina my brazilian blog. Like…What’s love? Why does it exist?

I mean… Love is just another pleasure for people. But it’s so important. That’s amazing. But I don’t think you need to “give everything” for love.

 Don’t spent your life because of that. I think this way:
If you love someone, you want to see him happy, right? So, let it be. If the loves you, he will tell you, but don’t spend your life sad because of love. Try to forget it.

I didn’t explain it very well because I don’t have much vocabulary but I’ll try next time.

See ya!